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ST7DPFET: I’ve re-lived this morning every day for the last week 🫶🏽🍟
I was basking in the bliss of being on cloud nine after our transfer + marinating in the joy of what could be, but with every passing day those feelings have dwindled. They’ve now been replaced with feelings of anxiousness + worry.
Part of me is so ready to know, either way— I just want to know. The other part of me wants to sit in this waiting a little longer because here I have hope, a hope that could be quickly taken by hearing three devastating words— “it didn’t work.”
The waiting is brutal, but the one thing that has brought me undeniable peace this week is knowing that I’m allowed to be excited about what we did without knowing what tomorrow holds.
Whether it’s a yes or a no, we got to do this + that’s an honor in + of itself.
The day before BETA is heavy. You’re looking at the clock wondering why the minutes won’t pass faster + feeling like you’re going to go crazy. The temptation to take a pregnancy test at home is at an all time high, but I also know that it wouldn’t be a good idea for me— I can wait a little longer.
Until then, I will keep this video on a loop + continue to stare at our embryo picture because it feels silly to do anything else. We’re distracting our minds, but our minds always find a way back to here to sit + wonder.
We’re saying every prayer, thinking every sticky little thought, + just hoping with everything we have that this little baby decided to stick around.
For our fellow IVF + infertility warriors — no matter where you are in your journey, I want you to know you’re not alone. This whole thing can feel so isolating, but I want you to know that we’re cheering you on + we’re here if you want to talk♥️
@stephanie.booe
