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JEMarch 6th 2025 was one of the best days of my life. Meeting, falling in love and marrying my best friend twice is up there. But after 2 years of infertility and two rounds of IVF with two failed transfers finally seeing a positive pregnancy test was a few years of build up.
I’ve shared the video of me officially finding out numerous times because it’s one of the happiest moments of my life but I haven’t shared this clip very much. What I haven’t shared was me quickly rushing to CVS to buy more tests as we tested early and I wasn’t prepared. I also haven’t shared that in the two years of us trying to get pregnant our local CVS must have moved the pregnancy tests to a different area only a few weeks earlier and me running all over cvs trying to find where they moved them.
I quickly rushed home and took more tests as I needed to see as many positives to fully believe this was happening to us. For some reason seeing that digital test say “Pregnant” just makes it so much more official.
Here is the part you don’t see, what followed after march 6th. I allowed myself to feel so much joy and excitement and we started telling family immediately. But quickly after my infertility brain creeped back. It took me 2 years of actively trying to see a positive and in those two years I had suffered a chemical before having the chance to get excited. I didn’t know if I could keep a pregnancy, so I started telling myself everything that was going to go wrong.
While most people that get pregnant easily experience joy it gets to stay joyful. But if you’ve suffered from infertility or any pregnancy loss that hangs over your joy.
I try and share the happy moments as that helps me, but I’d be lying if I didn’t speak up about how terrified I was my entire pregnancy even when I hit milestone. That all being said every milestone did help the anxiety dissipate each time. But pregnancy after infertility and loss is anything but easy and joyful. It wasn’t until I heard that first cry I was fully able to experience overjoyed excitement for myself.
If you’re still in your infertility and IVF journey I feel you and as always I’m here for you every step of the way.
@jess_goods










